Still from 'Sea of Silence' A video by Fang Lu

fang lu- ex lovers project

You are invited to describe one of you ex-lovers for an artists video project. 
He is tallish. But then everyone is taller than me. He has really long hair, past the shoulder. If I put my hair down it would be similar to me now, medium to dark brown. Brown eyes. He is white but slightly olive skin.  He is slim. He has a weird dress sense, a bit scruffy. He wears a lot of green, generic T-shirts, in brown, beige kind of colour. You would never see him in a suit or a shirt. He has stubble on the face. Short facial hair. Really big eyes. Strong face and jaw. He has an unusual striking face, much stronger than my face. Wide shoulders. His torso is in proportion with his legs. I don’t know about his feet. I just never looked at them. Not hairy at all. Strange…When you are on the street you will notice him quite easily. Maybe it is because I like the way he looks. 

He used his surname as his first name, because no one can pronounce his first name. So I could never remember his actual last name. He taught me how to make sushi, not that I could remember it now. He has an obsession with Vietnamese girls. I did feel strange about that. He is a very mysterious person.

We don’t have any mutual friends.

He was very nice and caring but then he just disappeared. I never really understand it when people don’t explain things. It was just strange. One second everything was fine, then one second he said “I just not in love with you.” He wanted to carry on without any real feeling. I was furious and said "No". I just made him up to be this amazing person. In fact he was quite secretive. He kept his life to himself. He didn't tell me about his family, nor where he was from. He showed me a few photos, of him and his ex-girlfriend travelling somewhere. We lived in the same place but I didn't really know him. I still don’t know. He could have been married or had girlfriend, and I wouldn't have known. I didn't have any reasons to find him after that. I would not have known what I would say. It was unresolved. There was no proof of our relationship. Maybe there was one photo of him, but not of us being together.
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I felt like nobody.

A work by Artist Fang Lu
Produced by Momentum
Text written and performed by Lauren Hart
Filmed on location
October 2015 Berlin, Germany ​